Skip to main content

Born This Way by Jason Muxworthy, Part 1


Meet today's guest writer, Jason Muxworthy.  He is a big Dr. Who fan as you can see from the great photo of him above.  Jason is also the guest on my podcast, MIND YOUR AUTISTIC BRAIN this week. Podcast Link I am celebrating the big "10" today on the Podcast as this is the 10th episode and your 5 star ratings and reviews have been pouring in each week.  I am so excited the podcast is resonating with you and giving you great insights each week.  We are a beautiful community of varied voices and on the podcast you get to meet someone you may relate to and connect with each week.  You are not alone my friend.  Enjoy Jason's article below on sharing his autism diagnosis with the world.  Thanks for this Jason!!!

God Makes No Mistakes – Born This Way. Part 1.

First of all I would like to thank Lady Gaga for the title of this blog. As a result you may be reading this with a deal of trepidation as to what might be coming next. Some of you might already know what I am about to reveal about myself, either because I told you or you have worked it out. Also for those of you who have read my previous blogs any preconceived idea of me might be about to be turned on its head.

I’m Autistic – there it is, out in the open. To be precise I have what is more commonly known as Asperger’s Syndrome, sometimes referred to as being an ‘Aspie’. So first let me start with some personal myth busting:

· I am not like Rainman – He was an Autistic Savant.

· I did not ‘catch’ Autism, it is something you are born with.

· I am not mentally defective or intellectually sub-normal – far from it!

· Autism is not demonic possession; it is just a different view of the world – Read the Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night time.

Yes, I have been confronted by these unhelpful labels throughout my life, and as I was only diagnosed when I was 47 (ie ‘late diagnosis’) not only had I had to deal with these prejudices but I had also learned to copy other ‘normal’ people’s (Neuro Typical – aka NT) behaviour in order to blend in with the rest of the world. For me personally Autism is ability not dis-ability.

Even though the condition is so incredibly diverse we as Aspies experience the world in a completely different way in comparison with NT’s; sounds appear louder, colours brighter, textures, tastes and smells more intense – growing up, for me, night-clubs were a night-mare. Sometimes the best way of describing it is like having the volume and contrast of your TV turned up to maximum and having the stereo going full blast for good measure! This sounds very negative so far, but it isn’t.

I could so easily be bound to and by this, but it is my choice not to and I have to consciously major on the positives of my condition, because that is what God calls me to do. This is despite how emotionally and physically draining it might be to do so – and there are times when I buckle under the weight.

Philippians 4v8: Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

What for me then are the positives of being a Christian Aspie? Although for some / many NT’s these may be viewed as ‘negatives’.

· Excellent memory – I am also quite useful to have in your team in quizzes!

· Insight – From time to time God uses me to bring new insights into His word that many people may not notice.

· Hyper Focusing – If I get something in my head I can find myself digging into scripture (or whatever) to get to the fullest meaning of a text. I rarely let go until I feel that all avenues are explored to my satisfaction.

· Original thinker – Not uncommon to think of / consider completely new ways of doing things, which for an Aspie is quite something as it is generally accepted that we are uncomfortable with change and like routine.

· No problems with speaking in front of a group of people – but, paradoxically stay silent in a group.

· Truthful – If you ask me a question I will give an honest answer but this can come in an unfiltered format.

· Can concentrate for long periods of time – really handy in some sermons!

· Passionate – If I am doing something I enjoy and/or am interested in there can be, will be, no half measures.

This is by no means an exhaustive list and over the next few blogs I will endeavour to expand on this and how it impacts both my relationship with God, those I am in fellowship with, but also hopefully help people in the church become more aware of this condition.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Trauma is NOT Linear for Autistics with Alexithymia

by Carole Jean Whittington, January 25, 2022 A large part of #lateidentifiedlife is recognizing and processing past trauma.  This is far from a linear process.  There is no direct path from A to Z. Throw alexithymia into the mix and you have a whole other experience on this trauma path.  The delayed realizations that hit you out of what feels like nowhere.  You have one conversation and one phrase or feeling unlocks a cascade of other past experiences and emotions you never noticed before.  All of a sudden past events come flooding in for you to make sense of and process. Days later you are beginning to notice that there were relationships and people who treated you very badly and who hurt you, but you did not realize it at the time.  You were in survival mode as an unidentified autistic.                             ______________________________________________________ Often the fear of rejection dominates our thoughts and we experience that emotional hurt as a deeply physical pain. 

If you are Autistic & ADHD waking up to a pile of dirty laundry SUCKS! Join me for a HACK to make this easier.

  Did you reflect on the question from yesterday, “Do you believe that how you spend your morning tells you what kind of day you are going to have?” Most people never stop to consider this fully.  What were your thoughts on this, is it true for you or not true for you? The answer lies in your reflection.  It is both true and false simultaneously and wholly based on what you agree to believe.  There is a belief that high levels of cortisol are bad and because it is often called the “stress hormone” it means, by our interpretation that it is bad for us. However, cortisol is in reality good for us, necessary and serves us well.  ************************************************************  Here are a few examples of how cortisol serves us and is beneficial when it is in balance: -Cortisol is part of our internal alarm system and when we are under threat or pressure cortisol is released to allow our fight or flight response to be at the ready to keep us safe. -Normal levels of cortisol are

Did You Even Know You Had Been "Masking" for Decades? Autistic Masking and The Picture of Dorian Gray- Reflections on Similarities

  Chances are your answer is no, just like mine was. In the novel, The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, the main character, Dorian, lives two very different lives in physical reflection.  One life is his outer body which remains young and attractive, and the other is his portrait which ages and reflects all the external happenings instead of his actual outward appearance.  Dorian remains young and handsome on the outside, while his portrait does not. I don't compare this in the strictest sense, but rather as a way to convey how I perceive autistic masking and how it manifests in both the physical exterior and the internal worlds of an individual. I didn't even know what Autistic Masking was even after the first few years of knowing I was autistic.  It is a term that you learn and become familiar with after you get into the autistic community. The definition of "Social Masking" as it is discussed in the psychology and Autism world is: Masking  is a process in w